Yearly Archives: 2008


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Final Photo Review.

I admit, I will miss this class. It meant so much more to me than say, the Cournot-equilibrium—I mean, please. Real life application? Photography, on the other hand, is actually a viable (though difficult) hobby that I can further pursue and refine. For those interested in VS181, Janet Delaney is…the hip Berkeley mom with a JOBAMA poster in front of her house. The humble, lovable, yet extraordinarily talented professor who prefers to be called by her first name. The typical Wurster inhabitant decked out in black—who still comes to class with a genuine smile (despite pulling half an all-nighter putting together PPT slides for us). And the students? Talented. All talented. And inspiring. And constructive.

I’ll just say, I’ve never spent so much money in one semester for…anything (studio supplies, lab fees, you name it)—yet I’ve never felt so satisfied with my work before. Within a semester, I’ve created a portfolio that I’m actually proud of for once. Architecture studio projects never did that for me because the inputs always outweighed the outputs.

Without much further ado, here are glimpses of my final photo project in book form. I’d rather not show my photos just yet—because I want to continue with the project and get some better shots before I show all of them together someday.

PREFACE

This book is not my story, nor is it my parents’. Rather, it is the story of all first generation Asian parents told in their own [unedited] words but through the perspectives of their second-generation children. Underneath the bitter sarcasm, underhanded compliments, and passive-aggressive emails, the children are still able to recognize and experience the subtlety of the first-generations’ unconditional (and often unexpected) love.

The term “fob” was once used in a derogatory way to address Asian immigrants in the United States, but since then, people—like me—have tried to repossess the term to describe someone who is culturally unique, hilarious at times (for not quite fully assimilating into the American way of life), but—in the end—still downright lovable and worthy of sharing.

My friend, Teresa Wu, and I started mymomisafob.com and mydadisafob.com in October 2008, to do just that—showcase our “fob” parents in all of their [priceless] glory. People send us submissions because they think their parents are the cutest people on the planet—not because they are embarrassed of their parents’ surface-level shortcomings. I have compiled and organized a few favorites by dates posted to help me narrate my story.

“Yellow peril” and general feelings of xenophobia have nearly vanished from the multicultural Bay Area and other parts of this country we call America. As Asian Americans, we no longer try to deny and hide our families’ cultural differences; rather, we fully embrace them and hope others can slowly understand and appreciate the shoes at the door, the questionable-looking (but exquisite) dishes, the eccentric Feng Shui beliefs—and yes, our parents’ mastery of the new Chinglish language.



joke. (crap, typo too)


I kid. The last time I ate congee for breakfast was…on the plane to Taiwan.


my book was formatted with headings + submissions on the left, images + titles & subtitles on the right.


most people had beautifully matted prints that put my project to shame…


Oh, side note, in the middle of review, policemen and firefighters busted through with a stretcher. Apparently, a poor kid fainted in the middle of his final review for ED11B. ED11B?! That’s the first [intro] design studio within the series. No one should have to be sent to the hospital on a stretcher because of studio. To all you intended or current architecture students, 72 hours of non-sleep makes you medically insane. Don’t do it. Brain-damaged students can’t design anymore. With that said, I should probably take a nap before I start/finish my 10-15 page paper due tomorrow (you can count on it being 9.5 pages before the period trick).


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Mission Accomplished.

I did it. I escaped to the city with my camera despite having a 9am exam tomorrow, a project due Thursday, and a 10-15 page paper due Friday. Okay, so I’m not as badass as I try to make myself out to be—I went with the intention to take more photos for a project, except none of the photos I actually put effort into fit the project theme. So much for going to SF with a purpose.

I must be immune to walking, loitering men, and hilly San Francisco terrain because I walked from Powell to Chinatown to North Beach to Pier 1…ALL THE WAY TO PIER 39 and back to Union Square. I know, mad props to me (kidding, it wasn’t that bad). It was even more exciting than the time Arthi and I left the Concourse in the middle of TechCrunch50 to walk to SOMA, get some cream puffs, and find the “Twitter is down” sign. Oh wait, just kidding, that time owned, because we also hit up the MOMA for the Frida Kahlo exhibit. I will admit, the holiday decorations, city lights, and clam chowder bowls are not meant to be experienced alone. I must be the biggest loser you’ve ever met—so be it. I’ve even gone to the extent of naming my camera (though its name keeps switching, because every time I meet someone with my camera’s name, I have to change names). Enough of that talk.

Why did I walk all the way to Pier 39? Because I just had to. I needed to get my chili dog, my cotton candy (except I didn’t because it was fucking $4), my chowder. I needed to revisit fond childhood memories of my family and me at the pier. The aquarium. The seashell store. The “see if you got a pearl in your clam” booth. The barrels of chocolate and taffy. The messy street vendor food and then the good shit at Bubba Gump’s. Despite not having been back there since maybe 6th grade, I still knew where the bathrooms were. Heck, I still know how to get around most of downtown San Francisco without a map. Whatever was embedded in my brain since childhood will probably stay with me forever.

On the way back, of course I passed by the Ferry Building and the Embarcadero Center, and I reminisced that giant pillow fight two years ago on Valentine’s (I think they still have it every year). I love San Francisco so much I can never imagine myself leaving the Bay, except I don’t know. I just don’t know. Heck, I’ve been contacted to work in Angola, Africa upon graduation, and my mom wants me to apply for a Taiwanese passport (which would require something like a one-year residence). There are so many greater “design centers” that I’ve never even been to—New York City, Singapore, Shanghai—I really can’t say anything about my future. I just know that I will miss San Francisco (and the greater Bay Area) dearly if I ever move someplace else. Whatever happens…


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I’ve Just Transcended New Levels.

I slept on an airport bench, I brushed my teeth and washed my face in the bathroom, and my mom bought me a Malaysian plug adapter—I’m recharged, my laptop’s recharging, I’m good to go. It is currently 8:24am…you can’t deny that I am low maintenance for sleeping on luggage—eight hours straight.

Because I was battling my crapass battery, I left out all the golden highlights that made the experience truly worthwhile. The lucky Firefly crowd seriously bonded during our “time of crisis”—we were the modern version of…The Grapes of Wrath family—French, American, Chinese and all. When the last few were able to clear customs immigration and step on our bus an hour after everyone else, we cheered. During that one-hour bus ride from the rugged outskirts to Kuala Lumpur’s city center (well, airport), I felt at peace for the first time since the riots in Bangkok broke out. My mom compared us to refugees fleeing political turmoil from one country and seeking refuge at another, for added dramatic storytelling I guess.

While we were all sitting on the ground waiting for our plane ride, one woman asked a long blonde-haired boy what his job was. His response was, “I’m getting a doctorial research position at Carnegie Mellon in December—I just graduated from UC Berkeley with a Ph.D in May and I’ve been traveling all over the world since then.” Of course, my eyes widened and I immediately felt this odd connection with a total stranger and exclaimed, “Wait, you went to Cal? I go to Cal!” We both had incredulous looks of amazement then. How two Cal students manage to be stuck in a place like Phuket at the same time in the same airport on the same tiny emergency plane is beyond my comprehension.

When we were all getting off the plane, my mom asked where we were (no, really, it was that deserted). A lady responded, “Think of this place as Oakland and the city [Kuala Lumpur] as San Francisco.” This lady had no relation with the other Cal student, but her brother(?) said “hella” on the bus later on—and once again, I smiled. I was no longer deciphering broken Thai English—sawadika to you too, wait what?—I was holla back-ing the hella. One guy took down my name so he could add me to the to-be Facebook group, “Fans of Firefly” or “Thailand Aiint Got Nothin’ on Me—I Escaped in November 2008″.

My flight isn’t until 2:20pm. I have another 5+ hours to go, then a 4 hour plane ride, then another 5 hour wait at the Taoyuan (Taipei) airport, then the 10 hour plane ride back to San Francisco. 24 hours from now, my dad can finally stop freaking out.

Before I confront school, you know…reality, I’m going to sign off line and experience the “World’s Best Airport” (it’s their slogan) and find the world’s best breakfast because I am. Starving.


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I Somehow Escaped Thailand.

I thought the Phuket “international” airport was the smallest, dinkiest wannabe airport ever—until I landed in Subang near Kuala Lumpur. That, my friend, was a parking garage for mini-planes. “Baggage claim” was a pile in the corner of a warehouse-style room. Then we drove for an hour by bus to the Kaula Lumpur International Airport and I restored all faith in airport architecture.

I kid you not, I have staked out one of the Burger King’s benches for the night…because it’s 12:20am, all hotels in the city are booked, and I’m too chicken to call a cab without a male companion. On the positive side, I have free internet and I have to adjust jetlag anyway if I ever want to make it to my last two weeks of classes before I am hopelessly fucked for finals. My flight to Taipei isn’t until 2:20pm—fourteen hours from now. What, you thought four hours was long?!

The low-down: Where did I leave off? Oh right, Bangkok’s airport closed two days ago and fucked everyone over, we checked out of our villa and moved into another one across the street, called agents and airlines until Phuket unplugged all of their phone lines, then we checked out in the morning and waited at the jam-packed airport —hoping that we’d get somewhere somehow sometime…hopefully in time for the major transpacific flight back home.

Amidst the angry crowds, flustered secretaries, and queued lines, the heavens opened up, light shone through, and the angels sang out loud. Sit tight kids, it’s story time.

Yesterday, we were going to take a bus from Phuket, Thailand, to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, but when I called China Airlines, they said all flights out of Kuala Lumpur were booked—so we didn’t leave. This morning, we waited at the China Airlines office in the Phuket airport and we weren’t hoping for much. People in front of us were cussing in Italian, translators were waving their hands in the air, people in line were getting impatient—then it was our turn. All flights to Hong Kong were booked until the 24th, all flights to Singapore were booked until the 2nd, and all flights to Kuala Lumpur were booked until the 4th except for one flight tomorrow, because no one could get anywhere today. All flights from Taipei to San Francisco were booked until the 12th but our flight on the 30th was still confirmed, we just needed to get to Taipei in time. Miss the 30th? Wait until the 12th when school’s over and I can forget about…everything. Just imagine our anxiety then. We grabbed tickets for tomorrow’s flight from Kuala Lumpur to Taipei without knowing how we’d get to Kuala Lumpur from Phuket. Everyone else was in a similar or worse off situation. We all tried to grab whatever we could, even if the flights didn’t connect. Then we went from ticket office to office, with no available tickets to Kuala Lumpur until the 2nd.

Here’s when God granted us a miracle. An angel at the tiny airline company, Firefly, sent two requests for two additional planes to Subang tonight and tomorrow morning. We all waited for five anxious, uncertain hours until the government finally approved the night flight, and then the race began. The lucky 70 who were there since the morning were able to get plane tickets, and even that wasn’t easy. It took a fifth credit card to work, because they didn’t accept American Express, Citibank and BOA thought we were performing “suspicious activity”…

I’M LOW ON BATTERY POWER AND I DON’T HAVE AN AC ADAPTER. Anyway, I’m in Kuala Lumpur…I’ll finish the story when I get power.


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Quick Update from Phuket

Because of the protests urging the current Thai Prime Minister to step down, the international airport at Bangkok closed down—ruining travel plans for many. Our flights from Phuket to Bangkok and then to Taipei this morning were both canceled. All flights for the next few days out of Thailand (Pattaya, Phuket) to international hubs in Southeast Asia (Hong Kong, Singapore, Kuala Lumpur, you name it) are all booked (including waitlists). My mom frantically called our Thai agent at the business center while I called various airlines from our room—to no avail. The phone charges to our room probably span five pages and we even considered taking a bus with a honeymoon couple to Malaysia just to get out. What hurt the most was when our Thai agent exclaimed out of exasperation, “I hate my country” and the honeymoon couple complained, “I’m never coming here again.” To hate your own country and be hated is just such a…heartbreaking thought.


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Thankful in Thailand

As soon as I signed online, my friend sent me a link to the news regarding the two explosions at Bangkok’s Suvarnabhumi Airport. I was in Bangkok the day the riots started, but I’m currently lounging around in a safe haven next to a beach in Phuket—no need to worry about me. The greatest dangers I face here are getting sunburned and gaining weight. Besides the traffic, I’ve experienced no signs of political unrest. Our only concern right now is, we might be stuck here for a few extra days—not that I mind trading stressful nights at school for lazy days at the beach.

Despite not being with a tour group this time, we still played the roles of true Bangkok tourists: we bought local gemstone jewelry, we had dresses and suits custom-tailored by Indian businessmen, we went for a boat ride along the Chao Praya River, and we hunted down the coconut vendors to combat the heat.

Bangkok was amazing, but Phuket’s breathtakingly beautiful. We’re staying at the J.W. Marriott Phuket Beach Club because my mom traded our Newport timeshare villa for a week here instead. We’re essentially chilling on Marriott’s private beach during the day and sleeping in our spacious villa fully equipped with a kitchen, laundry room, two bed, two bath, living, dining, and patio space at night. I’m thankful for the calming waves and virgin shores filled with seashells, the sounds of exotic birds chirping on our patio, the scent of lemongrass in the bathrooms, even the spontaneous drizzles in 90 degree weather. Yes, I’m thankful for my globetrotting mom and stamp-filled passport, but I know that I don’t need to live or shop at a place where the only choices of water are Voss or a Christian Lacroix-designed bottle of Evian to be happy.

Frankly, what makes this vacation worthwhile is listening to my four-year-old cousin’s theories of how Americans have big boobs because we eat McDonald’s, how I need to keep pinching my flat Asian nose in order to look like Snow White, and how I’ll turn into Squirt, the turtle, if I keep slouching in front of the computer. Of course, watching her make videos on my Mac also provides me endless entertainment:

My uncle isn’t any less entertaining. He commented on how all the local Caucasian men had a particular preference for the short and dark Thai sort—a rather enigmatic observation. After walking around for a bit longer, he had an epiphany: Caucasian men want to make sure they’re dating real women, not beautiful “lady boys”.

In the end, I’m most thankful for the people who make me laugh and smile and feel loved—yes, even through subtle euphemisms from a four-year-old. I can sign online in Thailand and receive IMs when it’s past four in the morning back home. I can Skype with my favorite people and listen to a lengthy account about a date at Starbucks. I can read emails from my dad worthy of being posted on My Dad is a Fob but too precious to be shared with others. I’m thankful for the people who enrich my life and add beautiful colors to my everchanging canvas—and laugh at my cheesy blog references :) .


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A Dying Art?

In the beginning…there was film. And film reels and developer tanks. And chemical concoctions named “developer” and “fix” (with odors no more pleasant than curd milk). And darkrooms with anxious shadows. And light-sensitive paper and enlargers. And physical burning and dodging tools (not icons that you click on in Photoshop). AND INFINITE OPPORTUNTIES FOR ERRORS (you can’t just “Photoshop that shit” and ctrl+z, naw mean).

…then there was light. But of course there’s the inconvenient truth that you can’t make a photograph without light, so by “light” I actually mean the “end of the tunnel”, the smug satisfaction of creating something semi-worthy to be proud of after numerous trials and errors.

Okay, enough of the bull; here are my favorite shots for assignment #1, “Light and Frame”.

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Assignment #2, “Time and Space”, is due on Tuesday and I’m 3.5 rolls of film behind and desperately stuck. What are ways of abstracting time through a photograph? I’m not too keen on the stop-action or blurred motion shots and literal interpretations of traffic lights and clocks. Ideas?


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Sloppy Firsts in Film Photography

Developing film isn’t rocket science but it sure isn’t an iPhoto plug-n-chug either. In total darkness (no orange lights, no floating eye balls, no night vision goggles), I had to pry open the film cassette with a can opener, trim the film leader off without cutting myself, load the curly roll of film onto a plastic reel without jamming it, and then place the film reel securely in the tank before I could see my own hands again.

The next steps were pretty much the fluff-art equivalent of doing a dangerous chem lab experiment. The water had to be exactly 68 degrees (which was inconveniently colder than the faucet water so off to the water fountain we went), the developer/water mix had to be 1:1, I had to agitate the mix with a gentle twisty motion for 10 minutes total (time varied based on the type of film + ISO) but for 30 seconds first and then five seconds for every 30 seconds until time was up… to shorten the rest of the steps, it went something like: pour out pour in stop bath and agitate, pour out and pour in fixer and agitate for 90 seconds, pour out and dunk in running water bath for two minutes, mix around in hypo clear for 30 seconds, wash, dunk in photo-flo for another 30 seconds, hang and dry for 30 minutes… and then cut up my film into strips of five to slip into a film sleeve to create a contact sheet for tomorrow. (This is just the film; I have no actual photos yet.)

If I had messed up somewhere, I would’ve lost those shots forever—no memory recovery, no disc repair.

While I tried to stay focused, I couldn’t help but think of the article written by Vannevar Bush over 60 years ago. My professor for my innovation and entrepreneurship class strong encouraged us to read it, and so I did (a week after it was assigned).

Bush talks about the importance of constantly innovating, and to make his point, he speculates about the future of photography. I shall now quote him:

Certainly progress in photography is not going to stop. Faster material and lenses, more automatic cameras, finer-grained sensitive compounds to allow an extension of the minicamera idea, are all imminent. Let us project this trend ahead to a logical, if not inevitable, outcome. The camera hound of the future wears on his forehead a lump a little larger than a walnut. It takes pictures 3 millimeters square, later to be projected or enlarged, which after all involves only a factor of 10 beyond present practice. The lens is of universal focus, down to any distance accommodated by the unaided eye, simply because it is of short focal length. There is a built-in photocell on the walnut such as we now have on at least one camera, which automatically adjusts exposure for a wide range of illumination. There is film in the walnut for a hundred exposures, and the spring for operating its shutter and shifting its film is wound once for all when the film clip is inserted. It produces its result in full color. It may well be stereoscopic, and record with two spaced glass eyes, for striking improvements in stereoscopic technique are just around the corner.

The cord which trips its shutter may reach down a man’s sleeve within easy reach of his fingers. A quick squeeze, and the picture is taken. On a pair of ordinary glasses is a square of fine lines near the top of one lens, where it is out of the way of ordinary vision. When an object appears in that square, it is lined up for its picture. As the scientist of the future moves about the laboratory or the field, every time he looks at something worthy of the record, he trips the shutter and in it goes, without even an audible click. Is this all fantastic? The only fantastic thing about it is the idea of making as many pictures as would result from its use.

Will there be dry photography?” [source]

Will there be dry photography? Yes, we’ve gone digital now and everything is automatic!, but there are still many of us we take the extra effort to learn how to develop film through a series of wet baths.

Bush continues a few sentences later, “Often it would be advantageous to be able to snap the camera and to look at the picture immediately.” I cannot describe the anxiety I felt while I was shooting an entire roll not knowing what my photos looked like. Was there enough light? Did I shake? Was my subject completely in focus? Is my roll of film even going through the camera?! Even when I was finally able to take out my film reel from the container after the fix, I still couldn’t really see my photos. Did I miss a rinse? Did I pour in fix instead of developer?!

My precious shots are tiny squares of negatives right now—and yes, I did mess up like heck: last ten shots = black abyss (not even in the artistic way). I won’t truly know what has become of my shots until I create my contact sheet and develop a few photos, which of course I will scan and post all over the internet in true digital-era exhibitionist fashion.


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Squatty Toilets & Indigestion

Eight flights later, I’m back home in California. NorCal weather never felt so good before. I’d like to think that my Mandarin and Taiwanese have improved, especially with so many late nights spent in four different hotels watching brain-rotting amounts of channel [V]—but I don’t think I ever said much more than “how much” and “thank you” either. Oh well, I’ll be back sooner or later.

To clarify, I did not go to Beijing for any of the Olympic action or any other major city to check out any monstrous architectural feats in the making; I went to Kunming, Dali, and Lijiang in Yunnan, a Chinese province near Tibet and Myanmar with 94% mountainous terrain and 52 out of 56 of the indigenous tribes in China. The scenic places I hiked and stone-paved old towns I rode through in horse-drawn carriages were nothing less than breathtaking. I imagined I was a trader traveling along the Southern Silk Road stopping at Dali for a few nights to absorb in the harmonious clash of cultures and people, before I passed on my goods to another horseman who knew how to cross the rockier, higher-altitude terrain up ahead.

Okay, so I wasn’t a trader bringing silk and tea to Indians in exchange for textiles and spices, I slightly-shamefully played the role of the tourist with my bulky SLR strapped around my neck, my safety pouch tucked under my clothes, and my wad of maps clutched tightly in my hands. Damn, so much for being brown-eyed and yellow-skinned. I couldn’t use any of the bargaining tactics my Taiwanese relatives taught me so well.

Upon arrival in Kunming (and China for the first time ever), I was struck with mind-numbing fear because the taxis lined up in front of the airport all had “prisoner guards” in the passenger seats and all the buildings were fenced off with barbed wire. I almost wanted to backtrack and fly back to Hong Kong or Taipei. Much to my relief though, we stayed at the best hotels in town and within the second day, we left the city for the hidden treasures tucked behind the rolling jade mountains (by treasures I mean caves filled with stalagmites and waterfalls and such). Without much further ado, I’ll stop talking and let my pictures speak for themselves.

original photos in post now uploaded to Flickr

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